ahah, i can’t …

04/12/2011 at 05:15 | Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment
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ahah, i can’t believe this old thing is still here.  it’s funny to read my old angry self.  

still in phd school and still hacking away at it, but faaar less bitter.  something about getting past the qualifying exam (which i didn’t take until THIS sept), just makes a person… see grad school a little differently.  

let’s see if i can spruce this old page up a bit in the meantime!


yes! i am a genius!!!

06/07/2010 at 22:00 | Posted in graduate studies | Leave a comment
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…. according to this comic.  

of course… when all you do all say is stress about your qualifying exam.. mess up experiments and then complain about it on facebook…

right, i got nothing.  nap time!

the road to my qualifying exam is paved with…

03/07/2010 at 00:33 | Posted in graduate studies, Uncategorized | Leave a comment
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disaster is the best word to describe my relationship to this blog and to my studies.

after the term from hell (two classes plus a boss who treats you like a research associate instead of a grad student), it’s taken me a while to get back to a baseline level of normal.  wake up at 830am, drag my ass to school by 930 (i’m supposed to be there at 9…), do some experiments, pump body full of caffeine, do more experiments, more caffeine – maybe realize that lunch is important, then leave school at 6pm, go to a coffee shop and study.  9pm, realize the cafe will probably close in an hour and it’s sad that i’m still there and not at home.  also, hunger starts to set in, and i hope there’s food at home.  10pm, watch tv for an hour, while i try to remember that life is worth it, 12am (yeah, that hour was actually two hours…) sleep.

you see, my advisory committee thinks that i’m a strong enough student that i can take the phd qualifying exam, and my supervisor wants that transfer to happen as soon as possible – and so i only have a few months to prepare (well, two now) for an exam that scares me to no end.  what’s so bad, you ask?  i can’t remember any biochemistry basics.  it’s like i never took an honor’s degree!   and so, i’m stumbling around through life… hanging onto things like the internet and tv for a connection to reality.

stay tuned for more depression…

and if you want insight into grad school – read phdcomics (see links).  you’ll laugh, and if you are in grad school, you’ll cry… because it’s all true.   sigh…


22/02/2010 at 18:57 | Posted in graduate studies | Leave a comment
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i haven’t forgotten about my desire to blog my way through grad school!   since my last post i’ve been struggling to keep my head above water.  in january i distinctly remember swallowing enough metaphorical water that i allowed myself to say “goodbye world” … and then time caught up to me, and i crashed headfirst into midterm break.

since then i’ve slowed down… no more do i plan on being at school till 2am and returning at 7, taking just enough time to close my eyes and convince myself that that was indeed sleep, and, of course, to shower.  no, i plan on slowing down enough to at least be able to function on less than 5 cups of coffee a day!

anyway, needless to say, the world of classes alongside experiments is depressing.  goodbye society, goodbye friends, goodbye polite conversation…. and hello colds, dirty laundry, and a non-functional EQ.  (i went to a party one night right after a day in the lab, and within 20 min of my arrival, i had managed to insult 3 people and alienate a fourth.  at 25 min, i decided to cut my losses and go home.  so much for trying to have a social life!)

so, in case you’ve been wondering.. that’s where i’ve been!

until next time….

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